Blogpost. 2016-Post-Mortem.

You know, over the past year, I have understood a lot for myself. And from this phrase, as if Stan’s mouth from the southern park (which I haven’t watched for about 6 years), I would like to start this next blogpost … The thing is almost forgotten, because somehow there were no reasons to sit down and do scribberry. More precisely, this year I am doing even more this year than I would like part from her even in the previous blogpost there is with:

So, you are on the numerous reposts covered with a film with YouTube open spaces of blogs Stopgame.ru … but I will not introduce myself, because damn it is clear who is the author of the text published on the personal blog of Ivan Loev. Damn it, it came out? : meh:

And I will plop Disclaimer: this topic is not the summary of the results of the year “on the flan”, with discussions about cool films or games that I had to know. This topic is a gross reflection of the year lived, which is needed not so much by the blogs of the feet.Game.Ru, how much to me personally, probably. Yes, and blogs are needed, millions of reposts of wonderful vidos from YouTube have already tired me, nafig generally needs blogs if they turned into a SG-Tube. > _

So now there will be many letters of a personal nature, few jacks, there are few criminal pictures (lies) and … let’s go!

You know, this year was amazing. At least for the reason that it began with two absolutely opposite to the emotional polarization of events, nevertheless very close in amplitude.

On December 27, 2015, the first release of the history of the Fallout series was released. Pieces, for which I wanted to take for a very long time, but unsuccessfully, for [however, we will leave the affairs of the inner kitchen – the inner kitchen]. And then I finally had a chance of my whole life on Stopgame! And I, of course, grabbed onto him, like a lifebuilding rope capable of pulling me out of … and from which, in fact, actually? From routine? Well, obviously no. From the abyss of monotony? Well, it is also not entirely true, given that the 2015th passed for me under the sign of discoveries for myself all kinds of new things, enhanced by brains in matters of excavation in all kinds of Bloodborne, taking analysis from trailers and such indecent. In addition, somewhere in that year, on the holidays or in their environs, I had a burning sensation in the mounting area of ​​the brain, which said: “Hey, you have so much, you have so much that it would be nice to glue some slices from this and pour them at least to your channel!”So there was a not too well -known thing named” Random Games. Random moments “, which now has become just” random “. And, well, I also got into the machine there, that is, I tried to cope with it somehow, but ultimately it turned out quite wretchedly. But that year I killed attempts to do something pretty much of time and even though I had a not quite negative response, but not the most positive.

So it is very difficult to name the monotonous year 2015, I entertained myself there with diversity as I could. Another thing is that it was a disgrace, which did not benefit my main work too much.

And at the end of the year I find myself at the helm of the Dream project, but I have a wonderful instruction in my hands: “The first issue should be ready yesterday”, which is somewhat overshadowed by the prospect of calmly passing the games, to spit on the ceiling, trying to conduct some kind of analogies, invent the tricky structure of the narrative (I almost knew how many parts there would be at all) and other things). I just had to grab this huge and insanely multifaceted world from the start and gnaw it frantically, dousing with juice, as if it were a grenade of some kind.

However, I was saved by two things: firstly, it so happened that Fallout is my favorite game series (sorry everyone who suddenly thought that this position was held by Metal Gear [Kojimych, and you forgive me]), I already mentally pulled my hand with a wild desire to talk about why this post-nuclear roleeplaying game(miscouzi for Anglicisms in the text) is so important for me. So it’s not necessary to bite anything right – it was necessary to just refresh old knowledge/sensations and on the way. Secondly, I don’t know what the hell pulled me to do this, but I decided to start maintaining a diary. In a paper notebook.

The history of relations with this analog friend is spent by roots at the end of spring, all the same 2015, when I first noticed it on the website of one of the online stores (formally, we are forbidden for the links, but if you think of 14 multiply by two and stick the right words, Google will help you to gain wisdom), I could not stand it and then I began to fill it out slowly. At first, only “important” infa in the spirit of “notes about E3” or some theses for all materials such as reviews was written there. A brief textual excerptive anthology regarding Bloodborne, for example, got a brief textual anthology. And “travel notes of a sideline for Gamemir 2015”. However, it was in the format of the diary that this case turned only on December 8, when I was visited by the corresponding idea. For no reason.

At first, it was just a list of cases that were marked every evening as executed/partially executed/generally unfulfilled, and here was composed a list for the day of the future. Later, about a month later, all kinds of reviews about the/read/heard began to get there, if I was not too lazy, but we will return to these events.

Be that as it may, but on December 27, exactly a year ago, after a month of hassle, the first release of the “History of the Fallout series” with a minimum preparation in the history of such a section as the “History of the series” was released. And I finally could exhale and discover … that everything is not so bad. People in the comments rejoiced in the material and even on YouTube over the time (I was just looking for just recently) – positive prevailed, and not “Afftar moron, Yada drink and go into the eye with a mixer. Drive!11 “.

Only the fact that I myself was very clearly and clearly realized in which places I sat down and what could be better was better. Dialogues, for example, came out very poorly and steep, it was possible to make much more “human” and sweeping, like real conversations, and the narrative itself could be made much more smooth and gradual, and introduction – my adequate attitude to the series (otherwise I just stutter, they say, hello, this is a follacial claim, peshulia), as it was, as it was, in the case of MGS, actually. However, all this was needed for the time that I was in a shame and it seems to work as an excuse, but it seems like not.

However, here, probably, some personal subjectivity is involved, because with almost all at least any big videos in my practice it was something like this: I wildly like to work on the textual part, harvest some special footages (if necessary), but at the installation stage I begin to notice the jambs. Big, small, critical and not very, I begin to understand that some thesis should be revealed more progressively, and on the contrary, I took too much time to some other topic. But in order to overbound this matter – you need to return back to the text stage. Well and so on. As a result, closer to the end of the installation, I sit and I think all this: “Feng, what do you create for nonsense? Drop and come on all over again!”

Therefore, when some “History of the World of BloodBorne” comes out, such is the “History of the Fallout series” or something like the analysis of Death Stranding trailers, for me personally, a rather important part of the “Procedure” process is to receive feedback, reading comments and opinions. And thanks to everyone who is not lazy to blurt out anything adequate in the commenting field!

In general, if on December 27 I was suppressed, Jimmy Winner Casino review tired and most likely dissatisfied with myself, and many more, then the 28th my mood was completely replaced by the positive and to meet the new 2016 year, I was ready. But was not ready for what he carries with him.

It all started with the famous story about how I was visiting my friends, a bite of a rabbit, I looked at Adriano Celentano and then the phone rang that I was informed that as a result of increased thickening of gloom in my backwear, tea left on the complicated table, treacherously penetrated into the system of abode (left my abode, I did not turn off the flipper compluclee). And, as a real man-fool, I decided not to blow about this in the mustache. Like, well, my body is cunning, heavy and ridiculous, so that I could not be sad about anything. And I watered it with tea once. True, on the other hand.

Well, as it happens most often (and most often it happens that you are worried and freak out for any insignificant little things, but because of something, on the contrary, you don’t think to worry really serious and dangerous at all)-then everything went on adventures (the phrase is lifted by Flutter, it seems). And for the next two weeks I sat, sniffle and puffed, looking at the masry screen of my netbook. Well, or dabbled with PS4, finally finding time to start going through the Uncharted series, to which my hands did not reach.

It was then that the idea came to me that actually in a notebook you can write not only lists of affairs, but also all kinds of opinions on the viewed/heard/read. And since then I have done this and began.

Hmm, I don’t know how to distribute the material in accordance with … something there, for here is the Seichs, in a good way, the introduction has just ended. And to say precisely on the merits of 2016, I will no longer be so many.

And since this topic is conceived as a kind of post-Moor to IS Fallout, then a little more intently and speculates.

In general, it turned out well. This is the second big story of the series in my practice. As already mentioned above, not everything went smoothly and there is roughness at the exit in places, but ultimately I am satisfied with the result.

By the way, the most unexpected difficulty arose at all at the initial stage, because the “History of the series”, as a format, has always been a retelling of the plot, a flavored history of development, the mention of some important people, events, reasoning about gameplay and so on. But Fallout is a game where, in fact, there is no slender plot. There is a tie, there is a denouement and there is a whole bunch of roads, by which the hero can get to this very final.

And as if now everyone knows what format of the story I choose, but then for me it was not so obvious and heaps of variations swarmed in my head, starting with a “complete immersion”-t.e. Like describing one passage of the game on the face of her hero-what I saw, where he went, why he shot the idiot at the eggs, how shooting at point blank missed the sniper rifle and broke his leg-and ending with a more dull bullshit, which I can’t even remember now, simply because I can’t imagine how it can still be cash down so that the story is full-fledged.

In general, taking up history, I really did not want to make a “sterile” material with a boring retelling of facts from fan wikipedias. Hence, for example, the idea was born to start every issue with the re -screech of the game that will be discussed in the release. From here, the roots are growing at the shift of almost the entire standard SG-form-the entry, leaving the dies with the names of speaking authors, the names of the games, the credits-all this went into processing for the sake of authenticity! I still liked this technique with the time of the thief’s claims, but, unfortunately, I didn’t have time to migrate the same mafia, because I never figured out what it was – the mafia style of the inscription. Well, okay.

Still in a strange way, for all eight issues, in my opinion, no one reacted to the fact that I began the descriptions of each issue with some bearded joke, reinforced under the realities of the Fallout world. The idea, of course, is far from Bloody Brilliant, but I liked it then. And now I like it. FIG knows what. Apparently, by the fact that I came up with it.

And I also liked how, after passing Fallout 3, I found good reserves in it in order to turn off the interface and fly a camera with a wildly satisfied look taking all sorts of landscape pictures. And as a result, I had to dangle along the whole heap of my preservations in order to survive everyone that belonged to everything in the world. Moreover, how much I did not try to combine this contemplation regime using the gamepad (it is much more smooth and nicer to move the camera, and not to be rumbled and jerk off with the mouse), but did not master. More precisely, there, for combining, such dances with a tambourine had to dance that I very quickly scored on the idea.

Unfortunately, unfortunately, it was not possible to normally realize one cool idea – it turned out there, you can pause the world. Moreover, even the physicist “turns off” and if, for example, take, enter the raiders’ base, stop everything, approach everyone, shoot them in their heads, and then return to the original and press Play, an analogue of the final scene from Kingsman will happen (the heads will explode like large, ripe watermelons). But it did not work out – because there would have nowhere to stick such a footage. Plus for some reason at such moments Fallout 3, it was not good and touched and talked, all kinds of micro-frisis and jumps occurred constantly, which also negatively affected the result.

I also liked the Fallout review found: New Vegas, just old -wing in all fields, Yehah.

Nevertheless, no matter how you turn, no matter how you rotate, it was a very intense trip to eight issues, which I, in fact, are completed … Damn, I do not want to say the word “I am proud”. I’m pleased with them, here. I am glad that it ended and glad that it ended successfully, and not somehow stumbling, getting confused in its own conclusions and burning contradictions. I am glad that this was the reason to finally re-hardly re-harden your favorite games with pleasure for yourself, but also with the benefit for business.

In general, the 2016th year has become a year of amazing productivity for me: 10 releases of the “Stories of the series” (seven-Fallout, three-Mafia), 17 full-fledged reviews and a video format, 12 stable issues of “Indicator” and 3 “History of the World”-Bloodborne: The Old Hunters, Hyper Light.Drifter and Inside. If such numbers were called to me a year ago, I would laugh this person in the face. However, no, firstly, I have no habit of laughing in the face, and secondly, I believe that “everything happens, and the beetle whistles, and the bull flies”, and to make a lot of content is not in space to fly and do not dance to study in two weeks. Oh yes, there was also a spontaneous “History of the world of snakes”, but for serious content (in terms of human arms) I won’t consider it, because with the same Upech I need to conduct an investigation and calculate how many broadcasts I diverted, how many I plugged, how many “three-in-one” and so on, but this is boring.

And you need to thank the notorious notebook (including other factors), I think. The curious plug is here in the fact that in general, all my conscious life, any of my plans work “not as planned”, but right now, on the contrary. And it’s not even about plans, but in general about everything: as soon as I started being confident, as something happened, it turned everything upside down. And it sounds now, of course, super -disconed, empty, but let’s go on the fact that the blog is personal, but I’m not here to turn the soul inside out. Although the best example is probably in my practice in this area – this is just Stopgama.Ru, which I stumbled upon some course of the institute there, being just sure of how my future life would go: I knew where I would go through all kinds of undergraduate practices, I knew where I would make a diploma and what a topic I would be, where I would work for a position, and TD, etc. And then Stopgaim happened, Acadu and now everything is nifiga not the way I thought it would be 6 years ago.

However, on this subject you can sharpen the Lyas for a very long time, but the essence is different: I try to never resort to the help of planning, because plans are always breaking. And since it has overgrown with a notebook, where he began to enter everything, he invented for himself the principle of achieving large goals by continuously stomping in small ones: t.e. Such a biggest and most important thing as the release of the “History of the series” when dividing on spare parts turned out to be not so scary: to go through the game, to ralk the Internet in search of interesting things, to make a couple of newborn babies to the sacrifice, to sit down and compose a huge text to many, many kilos, to voices it (and do not oxyP), and then mount it in a single porridge-malad. Moreover, even here everything is divided into parts: in the installation, for example, I first collect sound, then I put an important video on top (like when to reinforce the phrase in a video), and then I fill the remaining gaps and smash the music so that it is warm to be warm.

And when you pretend how many of the stages you can take about days, you paint and streamline the other way around, it suddenly turns out that you can master quite a lot of things for a completely limited period. And there is still some other review there in the breaks, to concoct, drive into the film and even play “for the soul”.

With the latter this year, it turned out the funny of all. My account on Steam is already about five years old, but in some way Elite: Dangerous and Factorio, the development of which I started only this year sharply took and settled in 4 and fifth places, typing (each) for about 200 hours of time I eaten. In the same L4D2, from the third place I have been sticking for three or four years now, TableTOP for two years, but with GTA V everything is difficult, because two hundred hours of these two hundred and fifty-two I spent a camera in the editor-vector-vector.

I was still thinking about telling something interesting about the IP of the mafia, but in fact the story is two: the first-that I all my life considered the optimal duration of the release of 40-60 minutes, considering the second figure a kind of “ceiling”, which broke a couple of times, sculpting the issues about Fallout. But there, as it were, it is natural – role -playing games, content unusual tons, of course, I want to tell about a lot. Here. And here, at the early stage of production, it became obvious to telling about Mafia: The City of Lost Heaven can be almost endlessly, and at first I looked scaryly at the volume of the resulting text, but … in my practice there were three games that were so cool that the story about them did not fit into the frameworkFirst Mafia. In the case of MGS, this happened is corny due to the epic scope of the plot, the story did not happen again with Fallout, but there it was necessary to briefly introduce the audience into the history of this world, talk about what such a “role-playing game” in the general concept, regarding games, and so on. As a result, in both of these cases, the releases very clearly and harmoniously “broke” for two, without loss of meaning, the logic of narration and smoothness. In the case of the mafia, this did not work: there the structure of the narrative was more cunning than just “Blok about the plot”, “Bloc about the world” and the story came out at once about everything somehow. It was possible to cut off something from him from the sides (such as the part where I tell about the areas of the city and all sorts of trams, or a fairly long introduction), but it’s also boring to make an information block-I want it to be perceived more artically than the article in pedigree. As a result, I had to leave an almost full -fledged documentary.

The second point regarding the history of the Mafia series is not directly related to the lawsuit at all – this is the famous episode with a review of the mafia 3. Apparently, now they will now recall it, for a long time for me, for the reason for me, the people bombed so frantically that I can’t even choose an adequate metaphor for a metaphor. And the most offensive is that if the notorious “suitcases” were really involved in the case, I would have shut up in a rag and tried in every possible way to avoid discussions of this topic, I would have sat satisfied with myself and eat pineapple and hazel grouse (or we have been a sign of majority from the time of sanctions?). In general, in five years on Stopgime, I have never heard so much dirt addressed to me. And it, of course, on the one hand always does not care what the know-items on the Internet say, before all the unpleasant unpleasant I was in a personal, then in the comments, but this is normal-I am not a mythical ideal essence in the form of a gnome that everyone should love, I am a simple ordinary person, so this is quite natural that there are those who do what I do, that is what I do, that is, who do not like those who do not like it, who do not like it. Yes, and in principle, read something on the Internet from some stranger in the spirit of “I drove your mom to the movie”-this does not pull on some kind of emotional shock of 9 points.

On the other hand, it is completely impossible to fence away: whatever one may say, but I do what I do not just because they pay me for it or I want to be famous, there, so that the heifers hang around the neck of clusters (when the girls are popular in general, lol?) And people in the streets ran up to give an autograph. I really like to talk about things that I like. To share something. It is just a very special feeling when you, for example, in the “Indicator” barely mentioned some game, and in the comments on the next (or even this) release someone writes something in the spirit: “Thank you for talking about %name_of_the_game %! Sat down to play and stick!”Or recently (well, as recently, from a year, probably how) that in St. Petersburg, fans of the MGS series conduct their gatherings periodically. And here is one dude who was twice there, firstly, he threw photos, and secondly, both times said that when they raised the question: “How did you find out about the metal of the throat?”There, almost in chorus they said” Stopgame!”Well, more local, of course, it is nice that people still watch it, and then they do not lazy to run to PM and say:” Thank you “. Actually, there is a suspicion that a similar fate will have a story about Fallout – also a couple of times a month of gratitude arrive.

In general, I am to the fact that despite the fact that I realized that the people would be dissatisfied with my positive attitude to the game, I was not ready for the power of this discontent. And the formulation of the text for the third release of the history of the series was suitable even more carefully than the review. There, however, the hype has already closed and the constructive in the comments was still larger, but … the devil knows.

In general, by the way, with regard to negativity, I was a little surprised at two points: when I took up the stories about Fallout 3, 4 and Mafia 2 I was very afraid that I would ultimately jump into some typical fan buzz of green and fatal grass at the time when mammoths ran along warm land, but … no … no … no … From the outside, probably, probably, but it seems to me that my claims are quite justified and justified. However, it is unlikely that at least anyone will make claims, and then consider them unjustified and unreasonable.

In general, the mafia turned out somehow briefly, therefore I even somehow did not manage to particularly form an attitude to the result of work, as well as in the case of a thief. But there were only two issues in general, the main advantage of which for me, as an author, is the fact that I tried to swear into the atmosphere of the narrative there intensely. Which, however, was perceived by some as an excellent sleeping pill. Yeh.

As a result, the 2016th generally passed for me under the sign “Vanya, turn on the brains!”And despite the fair average annual load, now I do not feel some kind of squeezed, like a lemon, killed morally, apathetic, or like that. There were such periods, but they did not last long. In addition, somewhere at the beginning of the year, I took my task of physics from boredom and without climbing google began to try to decide something. The gray matter creaked, but at least something betrayed. In addition, he began to master not only comics, but also returned to reading quite paper normal books, which he was pretty missed. Dan Simmons’ nightly dank paintings of the “terror” will definitely stay with me for a long time, and when they become forgotten, this novel will not be a sin to re -read. And Ted Chan with his very, very intriguing and breaking brain (at least mine) concepts from memory is unlikely to be uprooted, it smells to me. For okay there is “Babylon” and “hell is the absence of God”, but “division into zero” and “history of your life” do not allow me to sleep calmly since I read them and saturated with written.

And then I noticed that in Word, where I am typing this document before feeding his editor of posts and decorating with pictures and other excesses, this is the eighth page of the text. 20k signs without gaps. Wow. In the course of finally I forgot how to be concise and short. Therefore, I will end, actually. In addition, in fact, there is nothing more to tell: for there will begin or digging into some completely personal experiences that do not need to be pulled out into public, or the notorious conversations about the “film of the year”, “The series of the year”-we will talk about this with Afom and Des on the air “Three-in-one”, which will happen literally tomorrow, if I do not confuse anything and if I do not get anything and you are not confused andYou read this post exactly when it is written, and not decades later.

If you summarize any final direct results, then … I do not like this business. Of course, a year in general, I am satisfied – it was very tense, but the productive 12 months, for which I understood the essence of the phrase about “what does not kill us is more strongly”, and that I can be “faster, higher” and at the same time not to disappear from the normal rhythm of life, however … well, this is not a merit of the year. I am generally the New Year (and many other special dates), as a holiday, I recognize only for the reason – that this is an occasion to gather with my good friends and Get dried in a chlamma Switch to sit sincerely. Therefore, of course, it coincided beautifully that I started the history of the Fallout series exactly a year ago, but this is just a date in the calendar. And this is just a reason to look back and think, and what I had then and what is now? Who I was then, and who am I now?

And let the answers to these questions be left behind the scenes. For nefig. : 3

Thanks to everyone who read this small streamlines to the end. And even more thanks to those who will unsubscribe in the comments on the topic somehow, and not just “go out of the text of the text”. I will not congratulate anyone with anything, because I am full of boring regarding the New Year’s holiday. And he was not going to let down any results actually, but at one time he wanted to make a post-Moor for the claim, but he missed the moment. And now he was drawn. And then a pack of factors coincided. Therefore, like this. [approx. Ed. In my opinion, this is the third or fifth time I am trying to formulate the text, each time in a new manner] so just rejoice at the positive, he is an original sweet one today, I think with: See you there, in something that can still have time to go on our site this year.